And then, I got off the plane, rode a cab to the apartment I'm subletting, and when I searched my bag for money so I could buy food for dinner, I realized I left my wallet in the cab. I spent the rest of the night having an emotional breakdown, thinking I can't make it anywhere since I can't even make it from the cab to the apartment without losing my wallet. Not exactly how I wanted to start off my glamorous New York summer lifestyle.
Let's just be real about it, this is going to be a ridiculously hard 10 weeks. I knew that going to a laundromat to do laundry, actually cooking every meal for myself, and working 9-5, was going to be hard. I knew that. I guess I just expected my planning, responsible self to be able to handle the rest of it. Maybe this is just the world telling me, "Hey adorable little Felicia, you can't plan for everything. You're going to have to take life as it comes at you." That's going to be a really hard lesson for me to swallow. I honestly feel like Belle from Beauty and the Beast. Yes, I went there! It's my favorite musical, how could I not? I may not be entrapped in a castle indefinitely with the frightening Beast, but I'm away from my family and friends in this new scary place, and I made the choice to do so. Sure, Belle and her father definitely could have benefitted from Skype, or even cell phones, but she made friends with the enchanted objects, broke down Beasts' tough exterior, and had a happy ending. Not that I expect my life to reflect a Disney movie, but I'm hoping that I'll experience a few "Be Our Guest" moments in these next 10 weeks.
Felicia
After my first night
Hey love - it gets better, I promise. After almost 2 years of living here, you learn that its a very slow process. Not to mention the fact that you will be a changed woman by the end of it. This city does amazing things to people... just you wait. If you need ANYTHING at all (get lost/stuck in hairy situations/or just need someone to hug), feel free to call or text 360-600-6049. Keep your chin up. xo Lauren Cannon
ReplyDeletewow!! felicia!:D you are so brave for doing that this summer!! i very happy for you and inspired by you!:D do not worry, God has a plan for you!! you will b just fine, i am sure!! you just keep going and stay strong!! i love your blog already! i will definitely keep up with your adventures!:) good luck, take care, and God bless you!! <3 - Aisha
ReplyDeleteYAY! You made it, I know it will have its hard times but home is only 10 weeks away... that is the light at the end of the tunnel so enjoy every second till you return. Wish I was there to go play with you :) make sure you hit up Broadway Dance but don't take ballet if your looking to make friends because everyone knows ballet dancers are the evilest of all dancers ... and dancers are the meanest of all artist.... um scratch dance classes go to an acting workshop.
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